Histeria de Amor

Histeria de Amor

Te he buscado en las horas en que no existes

cuando los colores se destiñen en tu tristeza

Te busqué escondida entre fósiles recuerdos

la realidad construida con sueños lívidos

Te busqué cuando en tu noche el negro era agonía

y las estrellas como insectos te devoraban

Te busqué cuando tu mente era laberinto

entre máscaras y miméticas identidades

Te busqué entre las palabras de un lenguaje extraño

permutando significados, buscando algún sentido

Te busqué cuando tu voz era daga ardiente

tras la violenta lápida que caía sobre tus ojos

Te busqué cuando tus manos eran garras

te aferrabas a mi piel sangrante como a una orilla

Decendí hasta tu abismo para encontrarte

y tan solo descubrí mi propio infierno

He dejado de buscarte, mas sin embargo

escalando peldaños invisibles de tu silencio

te he encontrado en la inmanencia de la ternura

el único personaje real de ésta histeria.

musica: Hammock - Floating Away in Every Direction

Agradecimiento: A Beatriz Alarcón por sus siempre tan bellas imagenes.

Love Hysterics

I have looked for you in the hours in which you do not exist

when the colors are faded in your sadness

I looked for you hidden between fossil memories

the reality constructed with livid dreams

I looked for you when in your night the black was an agony

and the stars like insects were devouring you

I looked for you when your mind was a labyrinth

between masks and mimetic identities

I looked for you between the words of a strange language

exchanging meanings, looking for some sense

I looked for you when your voice was an ardent dagger

after the violent tablet that was falling down on your eyes

I looked for you when your hands were claws

you were sticking to my bleeding skin as to a shore

I descended up to your abyss to find you

and only I discovered my own hell

I have stopped looking for you, but nevertheless

climbing invisible steps of your silence

I have found you in the immanence of the tenderness

the unique real personage of this one hysterics.

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